Just for today, let yourself care more for your soul's inspiration than your ego's reputation.
To grow requires you to risk your ego being embarrassed because you wanted and lost, you tried and failed, you swung and missed.
Caring, playing, trying, boldly speaking intentions is, in essence, soulful because it inherently requires you to risk ego damage.
We have to let go of protecting our ego from embarrassment. This is part of how the soul grows and deepens. Don't wait until you "have it all together" and there is no risk...Be a mess, have an audience, and show up anyway!